Rainbow connections.

Mentally, when do you choose to start your life from the beginning? Is this possible?

I'm sure there are many different types of beginnings for life, though. High school is a new start. Adulthood is a new start. College is a new start. There are many times when you can decide you want to dramatically change for the better, or what an optimist like myself would like to think is better.

I have made that decision: again. Almost at the end of my first quarter at college, Winter quarter, I really don't want it to end. I have accomplished so much in the last four months that I get giddy thinking back. I've stopped smoking completely, I've started volunteering, I've missed only one class, I've become a happier person in general.

I've also decided I become friends more easily now with straight edge people than the not-as-innocent ones. Before, when I was a smoker, I associated with mostly other smokers, who usually did much more to harm their bodies internally than I did. I was caught on the in-between of a destructive lifestyle and a path to success.

Unfortunately, I'm still not quite positive on how to interact as friends with females. After the manipulative, harassing, mind games my mother and sister would play, I'm very mistrusting. I would love at least a couple of non-dramatic, non-backstabbing, non-whoreish girly friends; honestly. If anyone has any suggestions, feel free to help me out.